Seriously, what is your biggest fear? I have had something on my mind lately so this post will be a little deeper than most of the recent ones. I will be the first to admit, I am scared of a lot of ridiculous things. Everything from spiders, to snakes, to clowns (hate them). But there is one thing that creeps into me that I can't get over...the thought of losing my husband.
I have written this before but I will say it again - there a lot of things I want in life (nice house, nice car, nice clothes, good job) but Drew is something I honestly need. I know you can't go through your whole life worrying about things that you have no control over but this one specific fear often gets the best of me. When you marry someone they should be your best friend and you should be able to overlook all of their faults and shortcomings to see what they are truly made of. DP is all of this for me and it almost brings me to tears every time my mind leads me back to the fear of losing him. I can't explain it so I hope that those of you who are married or have someone that you love very much (family member, friend, whoever) know what I am trying to say. For me, this is the most unimaginable hurt that I hope I never have to experience. In spite of all of this, I hope none of you ever hold back on loving someone. Sometimes you love someone for the wrong reasons or at the wrong time, but it will make all the difference if you just do it anyway. A lot of the time it won't work out and sometimes you will get your heart broken but trust me, in the end you will be so thankful for every experience in your life (good and bad). I honestly believe in this. I also know that many people who might read this will disagree with me, and that too, is so OK with me. Love is different for everyone but this is the way it is for me.
My prayer is that I will put this in God's hands because I absolutely know that I am not in control of it. It feels good to be honest even if no one really cares what you have to say. Go out there and love today!