January 20, 2009

Are You Afraid of the Dark?


Seriously, what is your biggest fear?  I have had something on my mind lately so this post will be a little deeper than most of the recent ones.  I will be the first to admit, I am scared of a lot of ridiculous  things.  Everything from spiders, to snakes, to clowns (hate them).  But there is one thing that creeps into me that I can't get over...the thought of losing my husband. 

 I have written this before but I will say it again - there a lot of things I want in life (nice house, nice car, nice clothes, good job) but Drew is something I honestly need.  I know you can't go through your whole life worrying about things that you have no control over but this one specific fear often gets the best of me.  When you marry someone they should be your best friend and you should be able to overlook all of their faults and shortcomings to see what they are truly made of.  DP is all of this for me and it almost brings me to tears every time my mind leads me back to the fear of losing him.  I can't explain it so I hope that those of you who are married or have someone that you love very much (family member, friend, whoever) know what I am trying to say.  For me, this is the most unimaginable hurt that I hope I never have to experience.  In spite of all of this, I hope none of you ever hold back on loving someone.  Sometimes you love someone for the wrong reasons or at the wrong time, but it will make all the difference if you just do it anyway.  A lot of the time it won't work out and sometimes you will get your heart broken but trust me, in the end you will be so thankful for every experience in your life (good and bad).  I honestly believe in this.  I also know that many people who might read this will disagree with me, and that too, is so OK with me.  Love is different for everyone but this is the way it is for me.

My prayer is that I will put this in God's hands because I absolutely know that I am not in control of it.  It feels good to be honest even if no one really cares what you have to say.  Go out there and love today!

24 comments:

brown eyed girl said...

I'm the same way. It freaks me out to think about losing sweet Dimples or my mama and daddy. My heart stops a beat or two whenever I think about that. Conversely, when I think about my own mortality, I draw a blank. I have no idea how to conceptualize that.

I know you said that you let go and let God, but living each day as if it were your last would also allow you to enjoy your time with DP more. I need to be more mindful of that, too!

Good Gals Inc said...

I have a huge fear of free falling. Like The Twilight Zone Tower of Terror at Disney World is my worst nightmare!!!

I also have a deeper fear of not figuring out what I'm suppose to do with my life, but thats a whole other issue!!

Mommy In Pink said...

Great Post! I couldn't imagine losing my husband..I'd just die..honestly! And Clowns scare the crap out of me, oh yea...and Porcelin dolls too with there eyes that follow you wherever you go..Ick!

Supersalwa said...

I find it too terrifying a thought, to contemplate too closely - the thought of losing someone you love romantically or otherwise.

I'd much rather think about my irrational fear of spiders!

(Found your blog through Marissa's A Shared Journey...hope you don't mind :) )

Kelly Marie said...

My biggest fear? Failure. I am also so, so afraid that I will get so caught up in being afraid to fail that I will just let my whole life pass me by and never have fun. And be alone while doing this.

On a lighter not...I am afraid of the dark, and bugs. haha!

Great, great post.

Kelly Marie said...

P.S. that show Are You Afraid of the Dark scared me to death when I was little. ha-ha

Em said...

Clowns are one of the scariest things EVER!!!

However... my biggest, ultimate fear is losing my husband. My life would be so incomplete I'm not sure I could keep living. I can't even stand the thought.

James said...

From a guys perspective I have the same fear about losing my wife. Every now and then when she leaves the house to go to work i'll get that soul destroying thought pop into my head of 'what if something happens to her, I should be with her to protect her and keep her safe'

of course this is just crazy talk but i guess when you love someone so deeply you can't help yourself sometimes

zen|by|lunch

Jamie said...

Hey, I just found your blog. It's so cute!
Here's my blog: http://lasweetpetite.blogspot.com/

I think my biggest fear is not finding "the one." I grew up in a close family and my parents have a good marriage so I want the same thing for myself, but am scared of not finding it. :(

Anonymous said...

I'm really enjoying the design and layout of your website. It's a very easy on the eyes which
makes it much more pleasant for me to come here and visit more often.
Did you hire out a designer to create your theme? Outstanding work!


Here is my weblog: glutenfreies brot
Take a look at my web blog :: kleine kuchen rezepte

Anonymous said...

Have you ever considered about adding a little bit more than
just your articles? I mean, what you say is important and all.
But imagine if you added some great graphics or video clips to give your posts
more, "pop"! Your content is excellent but with images
and videos, this blog could definitely be one of the most beneficial in its
field. Excellent blog!

Here is my page ... low carb brot im supermarkt

Anonymous said...

Thank you for the good writeup. It in fact was a amusement account it.
Look advanced to more added agreeable from you! However, how can we communicate?


My page - low carp diät

Anonymous said...

My spouse and I absolutely love your blog and find most of
your post's to be exactly what I'm looking for. Would you offer guest writers to write content for yourself?
I wouldn't mind creating a post or elaborating on a few of the subjects you write concerning here. Again, awesome site!

My blog post; leichte kost

Anonymous said...

I'm really enjoying the theme/design of your website. Do you ever run into any internet browser compatibility problems? A couple of my blog readers have complained about my blog not operating correctly in Explorer but looks great in Opera. Do you have any suggestions to help fix this problem?

my weblog :: Wie kann man sich die erfolgreiche und sehr einfache Zöliakie Diät vorstellen
Also see my page :: glutenfreie Essensweiße

Anonymous said...

I really like your blog.. very nice colors & theme.
Did you make this website yourself or did you hire someone to do it for you?
Plz respond as I'm looking to construct my own blog and would like to find out where u got this from. thank you

My web site :: zöliakie
my website :: Was ist das besondere an der Ernährung ohne Weizen

Anonymous said...

This website was... how do I say it? Relevant!
! Finally I've found something that helped me. Cheers!

my site - paleoernährung

Anonymous said...

What's up Dear, are you actually visiting this website regularly, if so then you will definitely get nice know-how.

Also visit my web site: Kräutersäckchen

Anonymous said...

Hi there, I enjoy reading all of your article.
I like to write a little comment to support you.



Have a look at my web-site :: ow carb

Anonymous said...

Sweet blog! I found it while searching on Yahoo News.
Do you have any tips on how to get listed in Yahoo News?
I've been trying for a while but I never seem to get there! Thanks

my web site; wordpress seminar

Anonymous said...

I'm curious to find out what blog platform you happen to be utilizing? I'm experiencing some minor security issues with my latest website and I'd like to find something more risk-free. Do you have any recommendations?

Look into my web-site - low carb store

Anonymous said...

I love your blog.. very nice colors & theme. Did you design
this website yourself or did you hire someone to do it for you?
Plz reply as I'm looking to create my own blog and would like to find out where u got this from. thanks

Review my page ... Rücken

Anonymous said...

You need to take part in a contest for one of the greatest sites online.

I am going to recommend this web site!

Feel free to surf to my page: arbeitszimmer werbungskosten
My web page :: steuerberater in hagen

Anonymous said...

Hello to every one, it's truly a fastidious for me to pay a quick visit this site, it contains precious Information.

Also visit my website; paläo ernährung

Anonymous said...

I'm amazed, I have to admit. Rarely do I encounter a blog that's equally educative and amusing, and let me tell you, you've hit the nail on the head. The issue is an issue that not enough people are speaking intelligently about. Now i'm very happy that I
found this during my search for something concerning this.


Have a look at my blog; diät mittagessen